Confessions of a MidLife Control Freak

October 19, 2012

Confessions of a MidLife Control Freak

October 19, 2012

My husband and I had an argument a few months ago where he tossed out this gem, “You know, this wouldn’t be such a big deal if you weren’t such a control freak”.

And my reply was, “No, I’m not. I just want it done RIGHT”

Um, hello.

 

 

Confessions of a MidLife Control Freak

 

I wasn’t about to back down but in the back of my head I was wondering if maybe he wasn’t just a tiny bit right.

I was very neat and tidy as a kid.

When we visited my mothers’ sisters I usually spent a day with each of them helping them clean their houses. No lie.

When I lived at home I cleaned my room AND my parents room. No lie.

Actually, when I lived at home I did the bulk of the house cleaning and the yard work.

My sister was the cook.

I’ve always wanted things done RIGHT. And RIGHT NOW.

I hate surprises. Not the, “Hey, look what I bought you” kind of surprises but the “I’m working on something for you but you’ll have to wait to see it” kind of surprises. UGH!

When I was pregnant with my three sons I always found out the sex during early ultrasounds. It was just asking TOO MUCH for me to not know. RIGHT NOW.

 

Confessions of a MidLife Control Freak

 

Having kids helped me relax some but if you follow the timeline you’ll see that that argument happened after half of my children have left home.

So maybe I haven’t relaxed as much as I thought?

 

I’ll tell you what though. With all of the changes and uncertainties we have faced this year I’m beginning to finally (I think) learn to let go a little.

I STILL can’t talk about details but it’s been going on since about 2 days after Christmas 2011 and it’s getting to me a little.

The uncertainty is making me nuts.

There have been BIG changes in my career, my personal life and family life and they are taking their own damn sweet time happening.

I have absolutely no control over many of the things going on.

But I try to tell myself every day that things happen for a reason and that some day I’ll know why this whole thing dragged on so long.

Meanwhile I’m trying take care of the things I CAN control. Getting some exercise, eating right, writing my morning pages and creating something EVERY DAY.

Some times that’s all you can do.

Vicki O'Dell

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  • Dawnll October 19, 2012 at 8:56 pm

    Oh now I know we are long lost siblings…lol
    I have gotten much more relaxed since my last child left home and I took care of my mother full time until she passed.
    I decided a year and a half ago I would do crafting and use that extra energy for doing whatI love. Now if I could get PAID to craft everyday I would be so happy.
    Thanks for sharing

    • Vicki O'Dell October 20, 2012 at 12:34 pm

      Hi Dawn,

      I still have two at home though they are adults and going to college. It’s about the only way we can afford to help out having 4 kids with three of them in college at once. I’m kind of hoping I’ll mellow more over time. I still need some work. ;P

      Getting paid to craft… don’t get me started.

      Vicki

  • Joan VanCourt October 19, 2012 at 10:13 am

    I’d love to see your crafting area. Probably so organized and CLEAN. LOL
    Sometimes being in control is good.
    Just drives me nuts, too, when I don’t have control and can’t resolve something right away.
    Hang in there. Have a great day.

    • Vicki O'Dell October 19, 2012 at 12:16 pm

      Oh, Joan, you would be so disappointed. My studio isn’t clean OR organized. OK, maybe a little organized but I’m always working on so many different projects for different companies that it always looks like a tornado has just whipped through. And it makes me NUTS-O! LOL!
      The rest of my house is more organized and clean than my studio, and my schedule and time are pretty organized but not the studio. One day, maybe. 🙂

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