Hello Again

August 14, 2022

Hello Again

August 14, 2022

I’ve thought many times about how I would start this. I know I’ll edit this over and over and still feel like I don’t have it “right”. But I want to start writing again. I almost feel like I NEED to start writing again. I feel like I’m being guided in this direction and that it is time.

So here we are.

It’s been three years since I’ve written. But more like 8 years since something happened that made me feel… not myself. Like I wasn’t living in my own mind, my own body, my own life, or even in a safe space any more. I won’t get into it now (maybe later?) but it was an event that really changed how I felt about my life and about myself. Then I got cancer, then a hundred other big and small things happened and I stopped writing. I couldn’t even begin to imagine writing about what was really going on around me, let alone what was going on inside me. And not being able to show up here fully made it less enjoyable. I slowly but surely quit writing. And while I know I’m not a great writer it is something I have always enjoyed and I treasured the connections I made here. So it was a big deal for me to stop.

Things got dark. Real dark. I didn’t even want to exist there for a bit. I was completely and utterly broken. Finally, being a person who doesn’t know when to quit has paid off.

So here I am. Here we are. I have done a lot of work – there’s an understatement for you. Therapy – both physical and mental, yoga, meditation, healing, journaling, sleeping, walking, crying, reaching back, reaching out, and sitting in the dark. Alone. You have to FEEL those feelings, the hurt, the pain, if you want to heal it. And that’s hard stuff. It takes a long time. I’m still not finished, maybe I never will be, but I have made some good progress.

Anyway, I won’t ramble on forever. I just wanted to say, “Hi, I’m back.” I can’t wait to catch up with some of my old friends here. Is anyone still here? Tell me how you are doing. What’s been happening in your life? I’ve missed you all.

Vicki O'Dell

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  • Kris P August 17, 2022 at 1:09 am

    It was such a pleasant surprise tonight to see your email in my inbox, Vicki! You’ve been missed.

    Our paths are so very similar. The journey is difficult, but we all have to walk through it to get to the other side.

    So glad to hear you’re here!

    Looking forward to hearing more,
    Kris

    • Vicki O'Dell August 21, 2022 at 12:49 pm

      Hi Kris,
      I was happy to see your comment. I love it that some of my old blogging friends are still here. Feels like walking into a room with a bunch of friends. Wonderful!
      “Looking forward to hearing more”. Remember, you asked for it. 😉

      • Kris P August 23, 2022 at 1:59 am

        I did and I know it will be a journey worth listening to! 😉

  • Dianne S. August 16, 2022 at 6:39 am

    Welcome back, Vicki. Periodically, I would visit here to see if you were back and I was so happy to receive your email yesterday. Sometimes, when we experience really bad things, we gain a depth of understanding and tolerance that would not be possible otherwise. I have always enjoyed your honesty and willingness to share both the good and bad experiences in your life. I hope you will continue to communicate with us, we can all benefit. Thank you.

    All the best,
    Dianne

    • Vicki O'Dell August 21, 2022 at 12:48 pm

      Hello Dianne,
      Thank you for your comment. I used to listen to the people in my life who said I shouldn’t share so much. But it’s just how I write. I’m so glad that someone out there “gets” it. ♥

  • Robin S. August 15, 2022 at 1:23 pm

    Hello, Vicki,
    What a lovely surprise to find a message from you in my inbox! I used to follow your blog and always admired your courage and refusal to give up, as well as your never-ending search for ways to overcome obstacles. I know that everyone has issues with which to deal, but life seems to have given you more than your fair share. I hope that your beginning to write again marks the lifting of the darkness. God’s blessings to you.

    • Vicki O'Dell August 15, 2022 at 8:25 pm

      Yay! I’m glad I could brighten up your Monday. Don’t tell anyone but I’m a little bit thankful for all of that hard stuff. I’ve learned so many lessons and have healed so much. It’s time to put on my party shoes and enjoy life now. 🙂

  • Neta Kerby August 15, 2022 at 1:21 pm

    Hello, I’m glad you’re feeling better and back! I’ve enjoyed your blog before. Healing does take so much time and work and sounds like it’s paid off. Keep up the good work.
    Blessings
    neta

    • Vicki O'Dell August 15, 2022 at 8:26 pm

      Thanks Neta,
      I haven’t decided what the blog will look like now but I know that the REAL me will shine.
      Bright Blessings to you too!

  • Audrey Mayrent August 15, 2022 at 11:38 am

    So happy you’re back. I’ve been through the darkness myself many times and I can appreciate how scary it can get. Thank you for sharing your journey. Mental health is very important and one of the most difficult types of health to maintain. Sounds like you are taking excellent care of yourself.

    • Vicki O'Dell August 15, 2022 at 8:28 pm

      Hi Audrey, YES! Mental health is just as important as our physical health. I’m glad the world seems to be coming around and recognizing just how much it means to a persons quality of life.
      I hope you are well!

  • Anne Vickerson August 15, 2022 at 10:34 am

    Welcome back Vicki, it’s good to see you again.

    How the world has changed since you were last here. So many deaths from Covid and war, so many broken hearts, bereavements and shattered lives, such mindless political turmoil in your US and my UK…

    Better times to come for us all? We can only hope.

    Take care, Anne

    • Vicki O'Dell August 15, 2022 at 8:29 pm

      Hi Anne,
      Gosh, it sure has changed. And I think we’ve really only just begun. But there is good coming too. Hold out hope for that. 🙂

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