“The only constant in life is change.” Yet, lately, I’ve been feeling kind of stuck. And then, something happened that I didn’t like and I started the process of getting unstuck. Go figure!
If you have been reading here for a while you know that the changes in my life have been coming fast and furious but for the first part of this year I was still feeling kind of stuck. And then, I got an email. “We are writing today with the unfortunate news that we will be terminating your contract with About. This decision was arrived at only after a great deal of thought and consideration about the future direction of About.”
In a follow up email they said “Thank you for your years of hard work.”
Ouch! All of that time and energy and work and I feel like it’s being flushed down the toilet. I was disappointed, a tiny bit angry, and yet, a little relieved too. So I took to the outdoors.
My yard to be precise.
Getting unstuck is hard work. I’ve been working 5-10 hours a day on my one acre slice of heaven. New flower beds, extending the straw bale garden, trimming trees and shrubs, dividing plants, mowing and a whole lot more.
And I’ve come to the conclusion that I just want to be some kind of farmer girl who writes and makes things. Art, crafts, food, a safe and loving home.
I get lost out there in the heat and sweat. The dirt and green growing things heal my soul and make me ever so happy. And while I haven’t had energy to do anything at all when I come in the house in the evening I feel myself getting stronger and know that won’t last long.
I’ve applied for a part time teaching job with a local city that will pay my few bills and provide money for my plant habit if I get it – and I feel pretty good about getting it. Besides, it will get me out of the house. All of this writing has been turning me into a hermit!
Basically, a crummy but good thing happened and I was forced to really think about what I want to do next. I’ve written under deadline for over three years and it was time to move on. I was feeling stuck and now I’m getting unstuck. Having About terminate my contract and taking myself outside to work really hard helped me o see how to get myself unstuck.
Sometimes I guess you just have to work it out and sweat a lot in order to get unstuck.
thanks for being honest I have been stuck for 10 years but pushing My way out……Thank you moving forward one step at a time…keep us posted
Sometimes we just need an example to see that it can be done. Right Kay?
Hang in there.
Sorry to hear your contract, it’s their loss. I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you for the teaching post.
Thanks Clare! I got the teaching post and am in the process of all of the hiring paperwork. Yay!
xoxo V
Way to go! Can’t imagine why About would drop you, but good for you! Sounds like your yard is becoming a beautiful place.
It’s a numbers thing Carol. Not enough page views means not enough money. No biggie. Moving on…
I also get a lot of happiness in my garden. I am about to plant more cucumbers, squash, and zucchini. Good luck with the job.
Thanks Gail. I just picked up more plants today. You know, I’ve never had much luck with cucumbers. I have a pretty green thumb but cucumbers never do well for me.
Sorry to read about the About contract, but as the saying goes, “one door closes, while another opens”… or is that a cliche? *LOL* Their loss, your gain is my motto.
I pray the part-time teaching job comes your way, loaded with lots of gratification.
Thanks for the encouragement Pamela. I’m enjoying my yard and garden to the max. I’m sure I’ll be busy again soon so I will soak up the dirt and sun while I can. 🙂
What a great way to turn a “bad” situation into a positive life changing one! I look forward to “seeing” you in The Creative Goddess Posts!
Onward and forward!